I was so hard for so long. I was hard. “Face the facts.” “Look at the data.” “The evidence doesn’t lie!” I was college educated; I knew so much; I had so much information. I read the news every day, read sociology and history books, scanned headlines throughout the day. I needed to know everything…
Year: 2018
How Accepting Help Is an Expression of Love
“I can’t bring the kids to the library to meet you guys today. My battery died. I need a new one.” I messaged my friend early the other morning. “Oh no!” She responded. Then she followed up with a lovely offer to come pick us up and throw my kids’ carseats in her giant minivan…
Transitions Periods: Not Fucking Easy
I’m up late. Really late. I’ve opened my last bottle of wine. I’ve grabbed my bag of truffles. It’s after midnight. I’m up late. Why? Because I’m forty years old, and I’m transitioning to a completely new phase of my life. I’m leaving behind old and welcoming in new, and it is mostly lovely and…
Mindfulness: My Emotions on Food and Fitness
Mindfulness is an entirely new concept for me. Take food and fitness for just one example. Or two. For more than 20 years now, I throw myself into fitness when I’m well and fall into fatness when I’m unwell. I have lived on an emotional roller coaster of food and fitness. So I use food…
Chasing Success: Why It Has to Begin with Self Love
He sat there staring at the page, my last student of the day. He was already twenty minutes late. I was just about to leave work, happy to go home and finish up essays I have to write for clients. This is my last month at my tutoring center where I help high school kids…
Contrast in Life: We Choose How We Face It
I am learning more and more that contrast is essential to the human experience, and that we get to decide how traumatized we allow ourselves to be by the contrasts we face every day. My miscarriage has mostly passed. I am dealing with the remnants of the loss and the shifting reality, but the worst…
I’m Having a Miscarriage. I Think?
I’m pregnant. And I’m having a miscarriage. I think. What Do You Mean “I Think?” A little over two weeks ago I looked at my calendar and thought, “whoa! It’s been a really long time since I’ve had a period.” Long cycles are normal for me, so I take them with a grain of salt….
A Key to Self Confidence: Stop Explaining Yourself
I had a bad experience with someone. I don’t usually have bad experiences with people. I have an incredible amount of self confidence, and it is a general expectation of mine that people will treat me well. Honestly, they usually do. Since I made the shift a little over a year ago to embracing a…
Fitting In: It’s High Time You Stop Trying
“Is that good?” My daughter asks me for the fifth time in five minutes. “Celaya. Seriously. Stop asking me that. You don’t need my approval. If you like it, if you think it’s good, that’s all that matters.” Five minutes later… “Is that good?” Picture me smacking my forehead with my palm. My daughter is…
Why You Must Follow Your Heart Every Single Time
Oh there are so many different ways to say the same thing. Follow your heart. Be true to yourself. God’s will. The universe has your back. Trust your instincts. Look inward. And on and on and on. Of course, there are so many ways to say the same thing because it is an entirely true…